I'm disgusting

I went to the movies today (specifically editing out which movie I went to, to avoid embarrassment for myself) and I had a small popcorn, Milk Duds, and a blue-raspberry slushie. Plus my normal food for the day, which consisted of: a garden vegetable sandwich, a bowl of Kashi cereal with a banana, some almonds, mac & cheese with spinach and veggie chicken patty. So it was pretty ok. I really need to get some more fruits and veggies in, but it wasn't awful, besides the theater experience, which was stupid because it was right after I had the (delicious) sandwich, so I wasn't even hungry, I just caved into the tempations of the theater-going-experience. Dangit.

So the main reason I came on here was to set some goals for the week:
1) No puking (sounds easy enough, but it's been tough lately)
2) Work out 3 (or more) times (hopefully run at least twice and yoga/pilates once, or something like that)
3) Quit the gym (this has more to do with financial issues than anything else)
4) Avoid candy (just for the rest of the week)
5) Thai food only once, if at all

I've realized my junk food habit isn't so much "junk food" I could honestly take or leave most unhealthy food (I also think it's healthier to think of it in that way, not just just say "no way, not ever will I put that in my mouth", but rather realize it's kinda gross and there are better things to put in your body, but it's not the end of the world if you eat a bag of Doritos or whatever), but with me, it's the candy, oh boy the candy is what gets me every time. I can even avoid the bakery treats most of the time as long as I can have some chocolate candy. I'm not usually much for the salty junk food either, I like it well enough, but it's not the same as my chocolate obsession, nothing is. I think I have a fairly healthy grasp on most things food-related, but the chocolate is what gets me every time. I also still overeat from time to time, but I'm working on that too.

So anyway, that's all I had to say today. Oh and I felt really good today, not necessarily healthy-good (though I didn't feel bad in that aspect either), but skinny-good. Which, I know, is stupid, but it was also nice. I mean, I didn't feel "skinny", but I felt like I looked good and like a normal girl, who doesn't overeat and then vomit it back up. Although I did puke a bit today. Gross. But I'm going to stick to my rules this week and hopefully see some results on the scale. I doubt I'll be at the weight I want to be, but I think on the weigh-in after that(March 1st) I'll hit my first goal and I always said I'd get my new ID when I did that, so I could put my real weight on there and not be embarrassed by it, so the minute I hit that mark, I'm going down to the DMV.

I can do this. I am strong and capable! That sounds sort of cheesy, but I am, you know? I mean, I have to believe that in order to succeed. I can do this. I know I can. Of course I have it in me.