Better, but not in the clear yet

I still feel a little thick/fat/heavy/gross/what-have-you from the disgustingness of yesterday and from the food I ate tonight, probably, but I feel better than I did yesterday. I didn't overeat today. Hooray for that! I just need to figure out how to occupy my time with something more productive than food. I didn't do much today, but at least I didn't eat a ton either. I had:
a banana and some water before class
then after I got home from school I had some bran cereal with skim milk, a banana, and almonds and more water
then around 10:30/11pm I had two slices of high fiber toast with peanut butter and some decaf green tea
Oh and I had a Werther's Original during my math class today too. That has been all the food I've had today. I'm fairly happy with that. I mean, I wish I'd had more fruits and veggies and less carbs, but it's fiber-y carbs, which is good. I kinda just wanted to eat pure and healthy today though, because of yesterday. But I'm trying really hard not to think about how disgusted I am with myself from yesterday. You can't do that. You can't really plan too far ahead and you can't look back, you just have to make the right decisions now, you know?

I'm hoping I'll feel better and less bloated tomorrow, when I feel good I find it easier to do well, but then sometimes it counteracts and I think "Well, I'm doing ok, I can indulge a little bit" and I end up indulging a little too much or a little too often, I need to keep those thoughts out of my head, until I actually can indulge a bit, which won't be for awhile at the rate I'm going. I just want to lost 20 pounds, that's all. 20 pounds doesn't sound like it should be that hard to do, right? I just need to stop cheating. It's funny that I'm such a cheater when it comes to personal things like this, but in terms rules set by society or even rules set by anyone else but me I'm so good about it. I'm a really straight-laced, follow the rules type of person, except when it comes to myself, I'm constantly letting myself down. I'm working on it though. If someone else could just come in and tell me what to do and babysit me all the time I'd be golden...and I'd be smokin' hot in no time. :)

So yes, today was good. No overeating. No late night snacking. I don't count the toast I had around 10:30 to be late night since I wake up so late in the day. I didn't work out, but I didn't plan to anyway. I only have a week left at my gym, so I should take advantage of that, but I probably won't.