Oy!

I'm afraid to weigh myself. I haven't been barfing as much, like, hardly at all, actually, but I have been overeating a bit from time to time. So at least I'm nipping that bulimia in the bud. Stupid bulimia. I'm actually not eating that abnormal. Just not that healthy.

I want to try to go a week eating nearly perfectly and just see how I'm feeling. I would also like to exercise that week too, but I kinda want to do an experiment to see if just eating better would make me feel better. Not that I feel awful right now or anything, but it could be a whole lot better, you know?

I gotta get some fruits and veggies, but other than that I did some pretty good grocery shopping this week. I have a couple orange and apples left, but other than that I'm all tapped out of F&V's.

I'm also exhausted right now, but really have a strong urge to eat. I guess I need to start being conscious of this. I'm not hungry at all. Not even a little bit. That's the case 75% of the time I do eat though. I'm not a very hungry person, but when I am it takes me a lot to fill up, or what seems like a lot, but probably isn't. Oh how I long to be the type of person who could just listen to her body instead of her crazy mind that tells her to eat all the time, no matter what...well, I guess I'm telling myself not to eat, but I end up eating everything.